That’s what best friend is for!!!!!

The feeling that I had for you has crystallized. It’s such a beautiful one, I hope that you can see it. But no need for you to see it. Confused? Me too.

I love you once, it’s true, but days gone by as shits have became a fertilizer, so does this feeling. It’s no longer that kind of love but it grows into something different. Something that it should be. I’m sorry that it might took you into such a strange dimension where you don’t wanna flop in, so did I. That’s why I decided to crystallized it before it went deeper and deeper. No need to regret it because it’s not something that we need to regret. It’s just something beautiful that doesn’t belongs to us. Well, at least for me it’s something beautiful. But if it’s look like shit for you, I won’t complain. Shits will grow a seed into a big tree anyway hahaha! Looks who’s talking?!

I won’t regret the day we met until my heart decided to crushed on you, because you are special. I won’t regret the day when the truth came out and things didn’t run as I wanted to. No! Everything has set up. You and I have made our best decision, in becoming who we are now. Do you realized that it’s much better than if we became ONE? We were meant to be for something else. It might hard to understand, but once we understand it, we’ll thankful for it. There’s something that you should know, I will not put my foot step at there again. Because it’s not the place where I belongs.

Now, I’m free. And I’ll walk on my little narrow trail. It’s my destiny. Not to be with you but I’ll always be by your side, because I am your best friend. I’m the one who will tell you the truth about what’s right or wrong. I’m the one who always be around when you need a shoulder to cry or ears to listen. I’m the one who will wipe away the tears in your eyes and put a smile on your face. I won’t let you down, cos I will carry you whenever you loose your strength. This devotion has no limit, no requisites, no need to obstruct each other’s steps, no need one roof to live in, no need monthly shopping lists, I’m sure that our friendship will never end. Never! Can you see how great it is? It’s greater than love that became a foundation of enormous institution called MARRIAGE??? Lisence for bed activity? Our friendship is more supreme than those things.

Thank you for being by my side in my hardest moment. You deserve for the best. I hope that you’ll fine your Best One and live happily ever after, because it will become my happiness too. Maybe someday if we still best friends while we’re old, we’ll share about it to our grandchild in your or my back yard, under a mango tree – or maybe you want to have it under durian tree??? hahaha…. I’ll wait for that moment to come. I think it will be great!