Bike to Work

AHA!!!! Finally, this morning is my first day for bike to work!!! Not until the office actually, just reach check point – it’s about 3 km from home, then put my bike in Pak Hery’s house then change to minibus for the next around 40 km, passed the mud lake. It’s quite fun to feel morning fresh air, especially around my campus where it planted with a lot of trees.

Hope with this thread I’ll be more healthy and happy… SEMANGAT!!!

NYClub

Yesterday was a busy day for me. After went to the Church, visiting my friend’s father who just got an accident, accompanied my mum to go to my auntie’e house then went to TP to buy helmet to ride my bike and some stuffs to have light exercise. On my way home, in the cab, I got a message from a good friend fro Germany, Thomas Schmid that he and Christian Link a.k.a Mr. Beach just arrived on Saturday and offering to join their shopping and dinner in the evening. That was a record, went to the same shopping mall twice a day!!! ;p But that was a great moment we had. Lotsa funny stories to share. And there was ‘once upon a time’ story about Little Christian hahahaha… After having a little shopping, we went to have a coffee in Grazia, which is become Thomas’ favorite place when he come to Surabaya. It was amazing when Lestin came out with her sister. Then… we had dinner at Chinese resto, Christian Link said it’s a good one. We eat a lot!!! The table was to small for us… it wasn’t big enough for our food. No wonder, we’re NYClub Anyway, that was a great moment to meet them again… Welcome to the second home, Brothers hahaha….

1.2 million….

Last night after work,  I went to my therapist to have acupuncture, acupressure and some herbal medicine which helps me a lot with my head lately.

I got there, got the treatments then went to the front office to have herbal medicines. And the said….. ‘It cost 1.2 million rupiah for this and the next three other treatments for this month…’

Herbal Medicines

Gyaaaaaa…. just realized that I forgot that I have finished the previous package, and I have to pay this time….

Thanx God that I still have some money in my atm, and they just wiped them away…. *sniff*

Solo – A Long Awaiting Journey

Every time I went to Yogyakarta by train, I always stopped for few minutes in one of train station of Solo. I used to think, I should come to to this city someday.  I can say that it’s a non-traffic jam city compared to Surabaya. It must be great to visit it.

Finally!!!! I went there on Friday morning, June 26,  2009 by Sancaka train which cost only USD 6. It took 4 hours and 28 minutes from Surabaya, how amazed that I can be there at the right time! As exactly written in the ticket!!! I accompanied by my old camera, Yasicha FX – 3 Super, and Kodak Easy Share CX6330 that I borrowed from Aswid. Then, I directly check in to the Solo Inn Hotel, a lovely small hotel with some friendly staffs. Then I was a bit disappointed on the first news that I had. I told that than the Solo Batik Carnival, it’s an event that I really wanted to see, held on June 28, 2009 instead of June 26 – 28, 2009 as I read in the websites and posters. sniff….

Side walk in Solo

Then I decided to explore Solo alone to get some scenes to be taken, since my friends who I will meet still working. I took a bus from the hotel to Pura Mangkunegaran, belongs to the Royal Family of Mangkunegara. It’s a great place to go. Then planned to go to the Kraton Kasultanan Solo, but it’s closed on Friday. So I decided to go to Klewer market by becak, then I  trapped inside and couldn’t find a way out hahahah…. It was still around 4 o’clock when I returned to the hotel. After took a bath, I went to mall and found a place to have massage. With USD 5 I can have 1 hour Indian head massage with aromatherapy. Then back to the hotel and my friend picked me up to take me out for dinner — nasi liwet yummie, showed me around and made a plan to go to the Grojogan Sewu (waterfall) – Tawangmangu in the next day.

@ Pura Mangkunegaran

I woke up around 6 in the morning, felt so sleepy, I didn’t get enough sleep because there’s a party in the lobby that only few meters from my room.  After having light breakfast, my friend and I went to the waterfal, about 40 km from Solo. It took around 1 hour with motorbike. When we got there, we have to take 500 m  stairway down to the waterfal. We walked like old fellas :p After few menutes, we got there. It paid well. The scene was beautiful! Then…. it took a great struggle to walk up. But finally we made it and wet by sweat ) Then we had lunch, delicious sop buntut, then ride back to Solo and enjoying the beautiful view of mountain, hills and rice field.

Grojogan Sewu - Tawangmangu

It was almost 2 PM when we reached Solo. We directly went to the Kraton Kasultanan Solo, took some pictures, get some rest. Then we bought some foods for the people at home, one of them is the famous Serabi Notosuman. The most delicious one.

Kraton Kasultanan Solo

After picked up my luggage in the hotel, we went to bus station to catch 5 PM train. Time to say goodbye to Solo, friends and lovely experiences at there. Well…. I’ll be back someday…. ;p

Thanx to Setyo Hanugoro for take me around Solo without complaining ;p

Setyo (a good guide ;p) and I

212 Creation

We were born with two eyes on our front face because we should never look back. But keep looking ahead, look at our future. We were born with two ears, left and right, so we can hear everything from both sides. To collect compliments and critics and choose what’s right or wrong.

We were born with two eyes and two ears, but we only have one mouth. Because mouth is very dangerous. It can hurt, kill, teasing and others unpleasant things.

Remember, speak a little bit but see and hear as much as you could.

We were born with brain inside our skeleton. No matter how poor we are, we still rich. Because none could steal our brain, our thoughts and our idea. What inside your brain is more precious that gold and jewelry.

We were born with one heart, deep inside us. Reminds us of appreciation and gift of love from God, so we can share our love for others.

We Are Bigger Than We Thought Who We Are

I wrote it in Bahasa Indonesia

Beberapa hari yang lalu, ada sebuah pembicaraan panjang dengan beberapa teman tentang sebuah pengakuan. Bahwa kita manusia membutuhkan sebuah pengakuan dari pasangan kita. Bukan sebuah kata cinta yang diucapkan berkali-kali, tapi tanpa ada pengakuan. Mempertanyakan dimana cinta diletakkan. Adakah tempat untuknya berpijak, ataukah harus dibiarkan melayang laksana hantu yang tidak bisa menjejakkan kaki ke tanah? Sebagian besar dari kita ingin memiliki apa yang kita inginkan. Dan itu butuh sebuah pengakuan

Beberapa pertanyaan yang cukup complicated pun muncul tanpa ada jawaban. Karena orang-orang yang seharusnya menjawab pertanyaan itu tidak ada disana. Semuanya bergulir seperti sebuah Lost Message. Ketika kutanya, akankah kita mengutarakannya? Sebagian menjawab, ‘Sudahlah, semua sudah berlalu. Waktunya kita menutup lembaran itu dan membuka lembaran baru tanpa mengulang kesalahan yang sama.’ Yang lain menjawab, ‘Aku takut. Jika dia tidak mengerti, maka akan timbul masalah baru.’ Ada pula yang menjawab, ‘We’ll see…’ Hampir semua jawaban mengarah kepada keraguan, dan kenyataan ini membuat kami semua terdiam.

Tak lama, aku menerima SMS dari seorang teman lama, ‘Kita tidak memiliki apa-apa kecuali diri kita sendiri. Dan diri kita sesungguhnya amat besar, agung. Kita mampu menampung apa saja, lebih dari yang kita duga, andaikata kita tidak mengikatnya pada sesuatu. Semakin banyak yang kita relakan, semakin besar keleluasaan diri yang kita rasakan – Supernova 1’. SMS ini membuatku membuka kembali buku yang hampir 8 tahun ini jadi penghuni setia lemari bukuku, Supernova : Ksatria, Putri dan Bintang Jatuh, membuat tulisan yang sebelumnya dari penggalan buku ini.

Hari Minggu malam, secara kebetulan kami kembali berkumpul. Dan aku sharingkan penggalan lain buku ini, yang mungkin berupa jawaban transparan atas permasalahan yang kami sharing-kan beberapa hari sebelumnya.

‘Sesungguhnya Anda memang tidak perlu berusaha memiliki apa-apa. Anda adalah segalanya. Sekarang, tidakkah Anda heran dengan orang-orang yang menguras seluruh energinya untuk mempertahankan sesuatu? Justru ketika Anda melepaskan ketrikatan pada sesuatu, Anda semakin dengkat dengan Keutuhan. Mencintai sesuatu atau seseorang dengan keutuhan diri adalah satu-satunya cara mencinta. Sementara perasaan tidak lengkap atau ketergantungan adalah refleksi jarak Anda dengan diri sendiri.’

Tak perlu mengharapkan sesuatu yang bukan milik kita, karena kita akan mendapatkan bagian kita sesuai dengan porsi yang telah Tuhan tentukan untuk kita. Keep praying!

Happiness

Sometimes, there’s time in your life when you need someone so deep, until you took it from your fantasy and hold him/her tight! When the door of happiness has closed, another door opened, some sometimes we took so long to staring at the closed door til we can’t see the other door, that has been opened for us.

Don’t trust on sight, sight can deceives. Don’t trust on wealth, wealth might disappear. Trust him/her who can make you smile, because it’s only smile that we need to change the dark into the light.Find the one that makes your heart smiles.

Dream what you’d like to dream, go wherever you want to go, be what you want to be, coz we only has one chance to live and to do whatever we want to do. Hope that you have enough happiness to make you smile, enough effort to make you strong, enough suffer to keep you as humane and enough hope to make you happy.

Happiest person doesn’t need to have all the best things in this world, they just need to optimize all things that will come in their life. The brightest future will always reachable by forgetting a grey past, you won’t be able to step forward in your life until you release all failures and embitterment.

When you were born, you cried while all the people around you were smiling. Do as it takes, until you’re the only one who’s smiling whiles all the people around you are crying.

Do not count the years that passed, count happy moments Life doesn’t count by how many air that we breathe. But moments when we breathe in happiness….

Prayer For Lifetime Partner

Elok sent me this Prayer by e-mail on Friday. I printed it and read it every night after I had my evening prayer.

Dear God…

I’m praying for a man who will become a part of my life

A person who really loves YOU more than anything in this world

A man who will put me into the second position after Yours

A man who live not for himself but for You

Good looking face and physical fascination are not important

The most important is a heart that really loves You and thirst for You and wants to be like You

He should know for who and what for that he lives won’t wasted away

Someone who has a wise heart not only smart.

A man who’s not only loves me but respect me.

A man who’s not only adores me but he can also admonition me if I did something wrong.

A man who loves me not for my beauty but my heart.

A man who can be my truly best friend in every time and situation.

A man who makes me feel as a real woman when I’m with him.

I’m not asking for a perfect person, but I’m asking for someone who’s not perfect, so I can be perfect in You.

A man who needs my support as his strength.

A man who needs my prayer for his life.

A man who needs my smile to face his sadness.

A man who needs me to make his life completed.

I also ask:

Made me as a woman who can make that man proud and happy.

Give me a heart that really loves You, so I can love him with Your love, not only my love.

Give me Your Tender Spirit so my beauty came from you not from out of my body.

Give me Your Hand to always pray for him.

Give me Your Eyes to see a lot of good things of him, not only the worst.

Give me Your Mouth that full of wisdom and gives spirit, so I can support him everyday.

Give me Your Lips and I will smile at him every morning.

And when the time we meet, I hope that both of us can say ‘How great God is because You’ve gave me someone who will make my life become perfect.” I know that You want us to meet when the time has come and You’ll make everything happen so beautifully at the right time.

Amen

- Ecclesiastes 3 : 11a -

The Power of Communication for Self Healing

Believe that you have POWER of yourself of course by the permission of GOD. Below are one of so may self healing technique that I’ve practiced.

1. Lay down in a quiet

2. Close your eyes & take a deep breath.. exhale over and over until you feel relax and comfortable

3. Identify the problem, for example : “I want to know what is the best healing for my disease? And can it be compromised with me?

4. Get into your self deeper and ask into where it diseased “will you communicate with me? If YES, please give me sign” How if the answer is NO?

5. Please confirm after you feel there’s a part of your body that make a move (for example : wink of the eye, hand fingers etc)… if eyes winked then the answer is yes, and if hand finger move then the answer is NO, right? (in this case your body will give you a response)

6. Say thank you to all part of your body with all its cells that helped you in activities so far

7. Then concentrate again in part of your body that has problems. What’s the positive meaning of it for me? Pay attention in every self talk, put an mental image of some feelings that might will happen. Please remember : separate the positive purpose in your body that has problems. Feels the answer…

8. Communicate with that part as if it your best friend.

9. You can ask every part of your body to communicate if you’re stuck with the part with problem. For example : ‘Other part of my body, can I invite you all to discuss? Can you suggest me to treat part of my body that ill?’

10. If there’s an alternative way to treat it, please ask all part of your body, if they’re agreed with it? If there’s rejection, you have to ask them again until there’s an agreement with all of your body. Then make a commitment with them all.

11. When it’s all done, you can say thank you to them

Confused? Sound crazy? Or think that it’s now hurt to try? Well… it’s all your choice!

The New ONE

Once I felt that I didn’t deserve for the happiness in this world. Many time I thought what’s wrong with me? Every time I almost reach a happiness it just swiped away. The only reason that made me not going down too deep is just thinking that it’s a KARMA. Maybe I made a big mistakes in my past life and now it’s time to ‘pay the bills’ so I will have my life back. But…. whatever!

Then, just a few moment I had my last turbulence, he came up. He knows that I might never fall in love again, he knows that this heart of stone won’t be easily melt, he knows there’s something inside my head, he knows my complicated problems, he just said ‘I just want to love you, that’s it!’ I’ve never seen him before, neither he. He knows me by tagged, site where I was invited by Anna Gronendale and not really seriously in maintain it, he saw my picture with my guitar and he suddenly interest to write me a short message, which I thought that was a weird message to say hello.

Not quite long, he became someone special, til I have to hold my breath when I’m thinking about him or looking at his picture. Not a day I spend without read his text message or hear his voice, which is made me much much better. I can laugh in my sadness or hardest moment as he told me that he was laughing when he had a broken bound by motorbike accident. That’s sound crazy, but it made me think what can be worse than facing you had a broken bound… but you’re laughing. But it’s good to know that you can freely laugh where you supposed to cry hard.

Last night, he asked me how much I love him? Feels so guilty, I couldn’t answered that. Because I really don’t know how much I love him. I’m afraid. I’m afraid if I love him too much then it will ended up by loosing him. I couldn’t bear in loosing someone that I love again. I just knew that I started to think about him a lot.

Still last night, he told me that he had quit racing for me. He doesn’t want me to worry about his dangerous hobby. I got punched. Am I deserve it? And this the… without I realized, this feeling grows and I can’t hold it.

I don’t know what will happen tomorrow or days after that… maybe he’s the answer of my prayer. Today, I just so graceful for this love which is sooo big. I don’t want to worry about tomorrow because I gave it into God’s hand. Let Thy will be done.